the semester has started and my two new classes have too....this semester i will be traveling to albany twice a week- mondays and tuesdays....i know you are all jealous of the amount of time i will spend on the road, but i promise to share my fortune with you all....
so, monday was my first day....i had arranged with my advisor to meet before my first class to discuss my program plan and credit transfers....i showed up to her office at 6:15 like she had asked me to....i introduce myself, because our only communication at this point has been through email...and she says, "oh, now i remember why your file has been sitting on my desk for so long." now, mind you, back in october i gave her my program plan and course transfer information....and then heard from her at christmas time...that's right, two months later....i had emailed her a number of times through the semester to see how things were going, but never did i guess she hadn't looked at it....now i was standing in her office hoping we would finalize this....i was wrong....she says to me "i have another student coming in, so we will have to do this another time." awesome...she gives me my paperwork back and tells me what to do and actually writes in her calendar that i will be back the following monday to go over everything....
i have one hour until class to now kill....so, i meander downstairs and go find the building my class is in....now buildings at albany are very creativly named- education, humanities, science, social science, etc....those of you who work at SUNY's get it....those of you who don't, it's just how things go around here....my class is in humanities, which is a building i was in last semester too, but on a different floor....find my class and then leave, since it doesn't make sense to sit outside it for the next hour...
on my adventures i spot a sign....it says, "are you a regular marijuana user?" i look at the sign again, because i am convinced my mind must be playing a trick on me....but, it's true...the sign was looking for people to participate in a study on regular marijuana users....there are a few rules- no cigarette smoking, must be 18, must use marijuana at least once a day, and must be willing to come to interviews- that's it....participants will be compesated....i think, i could use the extra money, i wonder if i could fake it....
now it's class time....i had this professor last semester...i like him alot....so i am excited to have him again...the class is a core class and needs to be taken by all people in the EAPS program, so we are mixed class of higher ed and teachers....he tells us about the class and then, like any good education class, we have to go around and introduce ourselves and say a few things....this is always my favorite part....mostly because i can hear what others do and of course i form my opinion on whether or not they will annoy me....one man annoyed me....he we will call the principle...mostly because that is what he is....
the priniciple introduces himself....says he is the principle at such and such school in dutchess county....in the advance certificate program (ACP)....wants to be a superintendent....then he says, "Dr. Lane, this will be the one and only time I will be on time for this class. I travel here from Dutchess county and it's at least an hour and a half away, so you can not and should not expect me to be here on time. I have a job." I sit and watch Dr. Lane's face....sometimes he gives stuff away, sometimes he is pretty good....i would say he was pretty good....i think if anyone was watching my face, they would have seen my surprise and shock....and then i thought maybe when it's my turn i should make some smart comment about how my drive is 2 hours and i will always be on time....but as we know, i am shy- so this won't come out of my mouth....but my annoyance for the principle officially began...
on tuesday my class is called- College Student Affairs. this is a class i hope i do well in ;) basically the class is to learn about the profession i have been working in for the last 11 years....more if you count grad school...but we won't.....the professor is interesting....he has bad hair and is very nervous....he is balding, but has grown long the hair he does have...it sits just on his sholders...straight down....but nothing really on top of his head....bad hair. the nerves were strange to see...in all the classes i have ever taken, i have never experienced a nervous professor....he was shaky and so was his voice....the good news is that he seems very intellegent and knows his stuff....so, maybe the nerves were a first day thing....
in the class, we again had to introduce ourselves...one woman who was in my monday night class was in this class too (she is new to the program)....she just graduated in december from her undergrad....she told me that she has decided she isn't going to work or get an assistantship because she doesn't want to be overwhelmed....i chuckled and told her it would be good practice for her to take classes and work, because it will get her ready for the real world....i don't think she appreciated that....she did ask me if i was working...well, you all know how that goes....
but my favorite part of this young woman is this...we again had to do the introduction thing....one of the things we had to share was why we were interested in college student affairs....my new young friend's answer-"because i want to be in charge some day." right then i decided that i should be this woman's mentor....mostly because we have the same goal- being in charge. i used a different answer for why i was interested- it's been my career for the last 11 years....but i plan to get this woman to be my mentee...
on my way home, i decided to try and listen to the radio...my ipod was boring me and i didn't have a book to listen too....i came across christen talk radio.....it was the only station that came in on that part of 88, so i decided to listen....it was some kind of call in show and people were telling stories of how they prayed to god or put all their faith that jesus was going to bring them something and it did....one caller in particular talked about how they had lost their husband and how she prayed to jesus to save her from her pain and it worked....this of course hit a nerve for me...i guess i will say this, i give her credit for feeling like jesus just took her pain away....but the non-believer in me says, she is just supressing it all....mostly because i know that the pain of the loss of a loved one just doesn't go away....two years later and it's still pretty raw....so, i changed the channel....
those were my first days....lots of homework this semester...the social life i had during break is officially over....but i just remind myself it's all worth it....
Saturday, January 31, 2009
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
break...
i have been on break from school since december 15....that's a whole five weeks of no driving to albany for a class....it's been a nice break....and a long break....and i did more driving in my break than i think i did the whole fall semester going back and forth....it's t minus 5 days until i start again....but let me recap my break.
i took off from work starting on december 22. i figured it would be a nice long three weeks off. why not? i don't really get to do that alot, so i did it....then the plans started to be made. i left bingo on dec 24, in the worst weather, and did not return until jan 7, in similar bad weather.
on the 24th, it took me almost 5 hours to get to cold spring...a normally 2 hour drive....there were cars off the road every 50 feet or so....i think i was lucky to get there in one piece....then it was another three hour drive to ct that night....i stayed in CS for about an hour....that's all. in ct, we had dinner at my grandmother's- a usual tradition- my parents and my sibling and his family....it's a small gathering, but nice. my 5 year old neice is off the wall, and i am not sure who she got that from....
the next day was the normal family gathering at my stepmother's family house....it was full of it's normal dysfunction and reminded me again why i only see this family once a year....it was the day after christmas that the craziness started....
i got up early and left ct for philly....where i would visit with my in-laws for under 24 hours....we were having our own christmas celebration, and it was very good....my mother in-law had hurt herself coming home from work on christmas, so it was a little delayed....no worries, she is doing just fine now...my very pregnant sister-in-law cooked us all dinner, our family and her's....i was impressed with her ability to host us all and be so pregnant....the next day i got up early again and travelled 6 hours to keene....this was to drop off jack before i headed the extra four hours up to montreal....yes, you read that right, i spent less than 24 hours in philly and drove about 10 hours the next day to montreal...why, one might ask?
montreal was the place were one of my friends had chosen to spend her 30th birthday....so, i agreed to be there...for three days....yup, 3 days....again, i drove through some interesting weather in VT and canada to get there, but i did it....i got there....somethings i learned: 1. they do not speak english in montreal...actually, it's the entire provence of quebec....i crossed the boarder and no longer understood road signs- at least the ones without pictures....this is not something i knew, and no one warned me of this. 2. this is your warning- learn a little french before going to montreal....there are people who speak NO english...you should be prepared. 3. when a massage therapist says to you, "take a deep inspiration." she means a breathe....4. when crossing the boarder, and the patrol officer asks you, "all that stuff is your clothes?" it's best to just answer the question....no smart remarks....5. when you are crossing back into the US...the boarder patrol will ask you why are are going to the place you are returning to....even if you tell them it's your home.
from montreal, i ventured to boston, the longest stay of my adventures....there i celebrated another friend's 30th birthday and new year's....again, i stopped in keene after crossing the border to pick up jack...and off we went...the weather held out that day, it was clear and free....in boston, two other friends met me there, so four of us celebrated together....new year's day was a day of laziness, just watching movies and sitting around....then it was time to explore boston....it was a nice break....i left boston for a few days, to visit friends in keene....and to send jack back to bingo without me....after keene, back to boston i went for work related things....then finally it was time to go home....that night the weather was again bad....and there was a point in the non-state i thought i might get stuck....but i made it....
since being home, i have finished reading the vampire books....i love them and think everyone should read them....oh, and if you have read them, i would love to talk about them! i put away the christmas decorations, but the boxes still sit in my house...i've gone out to be with my people...i have done alot of cooking....set up my new tivo....started PT, hoping it will make my back better....and have been disappointed in my job...i have talked about budget cuts and the economy more than i ever thought i would....i have 5 days left until i start school again....i did not make a quilt like i had hoped over this break....but i am hoping that i might be able to do some of that while i am studying....my break is almost over...but the best part will be that my new niece, Addyson Lola, will be born before i go back....
i took off from work starting on december 22. i figured it would be a nice long three weeks off. why not? i don't really get to do that alot, so i did it....then the plans started to be made. i left bingo on dec 24, in the worst weather, and did not return until jan 7, in similar bad weather.
on the 24th, it took me almost 5 hours to get to cold spring...a normally 2 hour drive....there were cars off the road every 50 feet or so....i think i was lucky to get there in one piece....then it was another three hour drive to ct that night....i stayed in CS for about an hour....that's all. in ct, we had dinner at my grandmother's- a usual tradition- my parents and my sibling and his family....it's a small gathering, but nice. my 5 year old neice is off the wall, and i am not sure who she got that from....
the next day was the normal family gathering at my stepmother's family house....it was full of it's normal dysfunction and reminded me again why i only see this family once a year....it was the day after christmas that the craziness started....
i got up early and left ct for philly....where i would visit with my in-laws for under 24 hours....we were having our own christmas celebration, and it was very good....my mother in-law had hurt herself coming home from work on christmas, so it was a little delayed....no worries, she is doing just fine now...my very pregnant sister-in-law cooked us all dinner, our family and her's....i was impressed with her ability to host us all and be so pregnant....the next day i got up early again and travelled 6 hours to keene....this was to drop off jack before i headed the extra four hours up to montreal....yes, you read that right, i spent less than 24 hours in philly and drove about 10 hours the next day to montreal...why, one might ask?
montreal was the place were one of my friends had chosen to spend her 30th birthday....so, i agreed to be there...for three days....yup, 3 days....again, i drove through some interesting weather in VT and canada to get there, but i did it....i got there....somethings i learned: 1. they do not speak english in montreal...actually, it's the entire provence of quebec....i crossed the boarder and no longer understood road signs- at least the ones without pictures....this is not something i knew, and no one warned me of this. 2. this is your warning- learn a little french before going to montreal....there are people who speak NO english...you should be prepared. 3. when a massage therapist says to you, "take a deep inspiration." she means a breathe....4. when crossing the boarder, and the patrol officer asks you, "all that stuff is your clothes?" it's best to just answer the question....no smart remarks....5. when you are crossing back into the US...the boarder patrol will ask you why are are going to the place you are returning to....even if you tell them it's your home.
from montreal, i ventured to boston, the longest stay of my adventures....there i celebrated another friend's 30th birthday and new year's....again, i stopped in keene after crossing the border to pick up jack...and off we went...the weather held out that day, it was clear and free....in boston, two other friends met me there, so four of us celebrated together....new year's day was a day of laziness, just watching movies and sitting around....then it was time to explore boston....it was a nice break....i left boston for a few days, to visit friends in keene....and to send jack back to bingo without me....after keene, back to boston i went for work related things....then finally it was time to go home....that night the weather was again bad....and there was a point in the non-state i thought i might get stuck....but i made it....
since being home, i have finished reading the vampire books....i love them and think everyone should read them....oh, and if you have read them, i would love to talk about them! i put away the christmas decorations, but the boxes still sit in my house...i've gone out to be with my people...i have done alot of cooking....set up my new tivo....started PT, hoping it will make my back better....and have been disappointed in my job...i have talked about budget cuts and the economy more than i ever thought i would....i have 5 days left until i start school again....i did not make a quilt like i had hoped over this break....but i am hoping that i might be able to do some of that while i am studying....my break is almost over...but the best part will be that my new niece, Addyson Lola, will be born before i go back....
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
the end
it's official, i have finished my first semester of school! one semester down, i think 8,000 to go :)
this semester i travelled 4,000 miles between Albany and Binghamton....used 18 tanks of gas....listened to 9 books on cd.....got lost in my thoughts and figuring out my life.....had numerous group meetings...took four tests and wrote 9 papers....i had a variety of characters in my classes and still giggle about many of them....
during my travels, i learned where all the safe stops were along 88 (if anyone ever needs to know)....i fell down and broke my crown, which worried me for a while about not getting to the end of the semester....i did most things i enjoy while in school, better than i thought i would....some things did get neglected, but i guess that happens when you take on something new....
but the semester has ended, i have no grades yet....next semester i will be going twice a week...which should prove interesting....but for now, the end has come and it is sweet.
this semester i travelled 4,000 miles between Albany and Binghamton....used 18 tanks of gas....listened to 9 books on cd.....got lost in my thoughts and figuring out my life.....had numerous group meetings...took four tests and wrote 9 papers....i had a variety of characters in my classes and still giggle about many of them....
during my travels, i learned where all the safe stops were along 88 (if anyone ever needs to know)....i fell down and broke my crown, which worried me for a while about not getting to the end of the semester....i did most things i enjoy while in school, better than i thought i would....some things did get neglected, but i guess that happens when you take on something new....
but the semester has ended, i have no grades yet....next semester i will be going twice a week...which should prove interesting....but for now, the end has come and it is sweet.
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
the light
it's almost here...the end of my first semester of doctorate school....on monday i had two group presentations....one class should have ended and the other one only has a homework and final left.
in my first class our group presentations were 10 minutes each....i think there were 10 groups....it was a waste of everyone's time...the projects, the presentations, everything....the professor promptly announced at the end of the presentations that they would not hurt or improve our grades....that's right, they won't really count! what the hell!?!! each group spent alot of time running statistics, writing summaries, putting together information....for it not to count! i left the class a little disappointed and wishing that i didn't have to go back.
in my second class, we did our final project presentation....this is the one that i have been working on all semester...the group that had the crazy member early on....anyway, we had been working for the last two weeks to finalize our paper and powerpoint....one group member was less than on top of her stuff....it was pretty crappy of her to not put more energy into the final project....and when she finally did her part, she didn't do what the rest of us did and was way off in the presentation....overall though, the presentation went well....we presented our stuff and then got the third degree from the panel of VP's that our professor invited to come.....we survived the third degree and then sat through the other group....
at the end of class, our professor announces that he had some feedback for both groups....he wanted to let us all know that he had expected to see three things in our presentations but didn't....and that he hoped they were in our papers....if they weren't in our papers, we would need to put it in and get the papers to him by sunday at noon....that's right, he basically said our papers probably sucked and we needed to fix it....okay, maybe that is a little extreme....but myself and one of my group members made faces at each other as he announced this extra work...the class was supposed to be over monday.....now we have more work to do....
i am a little crazy about this....i just want to be done....i just want to put the semester behind me, be done with statistics, be done with group projects.....today is wednesday....i have finished my "extra" work for the group project....good thing....i have started my last homework for stats, though still have enough to do....and still need to study for the final....the 40 question, cumlative final....
i am looking for the light....hoping i will see it soon.
in my first class our group presentations were 10 minutes each....i think there were 10 groups....it was a waste of everyone's time...the projects, the presentations, everything....the professor promptly announced at the end of the presentations that they would not hurt or improve our grades....that's right, they won't really count! what the hell!?!! each group spent alot of time running statistics, writing summaries, putting together information....for it not to count! i left the class a little disappointed and wishing that i didn't have to go back.
in my second class, we did our final project presentation....this is the one that i have been working on all semester...the group that had the crazy member early on....anyway, we had been working for the last two weeks to finalize our paper and powerpoint....one group member was less than on top of her stuff....it was pretty crappy of her to not put more energy into the final project....and when she finally did her part, she didn't do what the rest of us did and was way off in the presentation....overall though, the presentation went well....we presented our stuff and then got the third degree from the panel of VP's that our professor invited to come.....we survived the third degree and then sat through the other group....
at the end of class, our professor announces that he had some feedback for both groups....he wanted to let us all know that he had expected to see three things in our presentations but didn't....and that he hoped they were in our papers....if they weren't in our papers, we would need to put it in and get the papers to him by sunday at noon....that's right, he basically said our papers probably sucked and we needed to fix it....okay, maybe that is a little extreme....but myself and one of my group members made faces at each other as he announced this extra work...the class was supposed to be over monday.....now we have more work to do....
i am a little crazy about this....i just want to be done....i just want to put the semester behind me, be done with statistics, be done with group projects.....today is wednesday....i have finished my "extra" work for the group project....good thing....i have started my last homework for stats, though still have enough to do....and still need to study for the final....the 40 question, cumlative final....
i am looking for the light....hoping i will see it soon.
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
The children....
last night, i think i realized what life must be like for my friends who have children....one, two, three, it must be crazy. but here is what happened.
i have a butt load of homework due in the next two weeks. two group projects and presentations (both include group papers that are 15-20 pages), a final homework, and a final exam. so, i had no after work commitments yesterday and decided i would dedicate the evening to getting some of the work done.
now, as some of you may know i have been home for the last 10 days (if you don't know, read "i feel weird")...so the dog and cats have had alot of "mommy" time with me....i couldn't do anything for most of those 10 days, so i laid in my bed or on the couch.....and they got all the attention they wanted....jack was sooo good in that time, he usually just laid with me, not getting into anything or doing anything bad....the cats too.
in my wisdom, i figured this behavior would continue....the "children" had been so good while i was stuck at home, they would continue to be good....i could probably get alot of work done. that was the plan....then i got home...
jack decided that he was going to be a pain about everything....chasing the cats around the house, digging up one of the house plants and after i cleaned it up, digging it up again....tater insisted on sitting on my lap or in front of the computer the whole time....and bella wanted food, to go outside, to come inside, to go outside again, to tease jack so he will chase her around the house....it went on like this for hours....no treat i gave jack interested him....nothing got tater and bella to be like cats and just sit in the corner.....NOTHING.
it figures in the time i need to do work, they all act up....all i wanted to do was get some extra credit work done for my stats class....and get some of the writing done for the two group papers, because i (someone kick me) volunteered to do the majority of the writing for both papers....yes, that was my "i need to be an overachiever" that came out when i volunteered to do that....the others in my two groups are wonderful and i have enjoyed working with them, but really, they are all very laid back about their grades and work....i needed to know it will be done.
to my friends with kids- this is why i don't have them....i couldn't imagine what last night would have been like if the animals were humans....and i had to pay all this attention to them after having been home with them for so many days in a row....i give you all alot of credit, good work on doing it all....
i did get some of the work done....with no help from the children.
i have a butt load of homework due in the next two weeks. two group projects and presentations (both include group papers that are 15-20 pages), a final homework, and a final exam. so, i had no after work commitments yesterday and decided i would dedicate the evening to getting some of the work done.
now, as some of you may know i have been home for the last 10 days (if you don't know, read "i feel weird")...so the dog and cats have had alot of "mommy" time with me....i couldn't do anything for most of those 10 days, so i laid in my bed or on the couch.....and they got all the attention they wanted....jack was sooo good in that time, he usually just laid with me, not getting into anything or doing anything bad....the cats too.
in my wisdom, i figured this behavior would continue....the "children" had been so good while i was stuck at home, they would continue to be good....i could probably get alot of work done. that was the plan....then i got home...
jack decided that he was going to be a pain about everything....chasing the cats around the house, digging up one of the house plants and after i cleaned it up, digging it up again....tater insisted on sitting on my lap or in front of the computer the whole time....and bella wanted food, to go outside, to come inside, to go outside again, to tease jack so he will chase her around the house....it went on like this for hours....no treat i gave jack interested him....nothing got tater and bella to be like cats and just sit in the corner.....NOTHING.
it figures in the time i need to do work, they all act up....all i wanted to do was get some extra credit work done for my stats class....and get some of the writing done for the two group papers, because i (someone kick me) volunteered to do the majority of the writing for both papers....yes, that was my "i need to be an overachiever" that came out when i volunteered to do that....the others in my two groups are wonderful and i have enjoyed working with them, but really, they are all very laid back about their grades and work....i needed to know it will be done.
to my friends with kids- this is why i don't have them....i couldn't imagine what last night would have been like if the animals were humans....and i had to pay all this attention to them after having been home with them for so many days in a row....i give you all alot of credit, good work on doing it all....
i did get some of the work done....with no help from the children.
Sunday, November 23, 2008
i feel wierd
on thursday of this week, i feel down a set of stairs and injured myself...it wasn't a small fall, i think there were 7 stairs and i fell down them all....i was wearing regular shoes, nothing fancy, but hit the stairs the right way and down i went....it was scary...i couldn't breathe....it felt like hours before i got my breath back....it wasn't that long, but for a good while i sat outside on the stairs making an awful noise trying to figure out if i would ever breath again....two very nice students came over and helped me and were patient with me as i told them no ambulance....to make the story shorter, i got to the walk in, thanks to my supervisor....everyone let me refuse the ambulance, as i sat there all i could think is that bad things happen when someone is in the ambulance...i can't get in one....the walk in determined i broke nothing but i had injured my back badly and needed to stay in the lay down position for 7 days....i told the doctor no way 7 days....but he maybe right....
so, why do i feel wierd? well, pain meds aside, for the first time that i can remember, i have had to ask for an extension on a test for school....yes, i have a quiz this week and the pain is so bad that i could not make the drive to albany....i can't even sit up long enough to eat, could you imagine a 2 hour drive, 6 hours of classes, and then 2 more hours home? since friday i have been communicating with the professor, explaining what happened and how my recovering has been...i am thankful that she understands and is going to let me make up the quiz later....i still feel wierd about this....
i also feel wierd because in my other class my group and i have to present on dec 1....that is just a week away and we have been less than productive lately....so, here i am not able to get to albany tomorrow....i am hoping that they will be willing to talk with me over the computer or something during class....i have been working on my part of the project, but i also have been on pain meds...so, who knows if it all makes sense....i just hope the group is understanding....and the professor....
i go for a follow up with the doctor on tuesday....i hope by then that i am feeling better....that i can sit for longer than a meal....especially since i want to go see the family for thanksgiving....i don't really want to be stuck in bingo for the holiday....but if it happens, then it happens....it won't be so wierd.
so, why do i feel wierd? well, pain meds aside, for the first time that i can remember, i have had to ask for an extension on a test for school....yes, i have a quiz this week and the pain is so bad that i could not make the drive to albany....i can't even sit up long enough to eat, could you imagine a 2 hour drive, 6 hours of classes, and then 2 more hours home? since friday i have been communicating with the professor, explaining what happened and how my recovering has been...i am thankful that she understands and is going to let me make up the quiz later....i still feel wierd about this....
i also feel wierd because in my other class my group and i have to present on dec 1....that is just a week away and we have been less than productive lately....so, here i am not able to get to albany tomorrow....i am hoping that they will be willing to talk with me over the computer or something during class....i have been working on my part of the project, but i also have been on pain meds...so, who knows if it all makes sense....i just hope the group is understanding....and the professor....
i go for a follow up with the doctor on tuesday....i hope by then that i am feeling better....that i can sit for longer than a meal....especially since i want to go see the family for thanksgiving....i don't really want to be stuck in bingo for the holiday....but if it happens, then it happens....it won't be so wierd.
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
life in the fast lane
i am not sure how fast lane i live, but sometimes it feels very fast....right now, i think i feel that way because i need time to do my homework, but i don't have it this week.....there are lots of reasons why, some that have made my heart happy, others are work related, but basically it's not getting done.
so on monday, i went to class as usual....and sat through stats class....i think if any class could kill, this would be it....the material is not interesting, and i know the professor can't help that, but she could be more exciting....i sit in class and think up stories about her life....what her house must look like- based on what her office looks like....her office is outta control! it's crazy messy and i am not sure how she finds anything....i went in to see her and there was no where for me to sit....now, i am sure some of you are thinking of other people you know with offices like this....just giggle for a minute.
back to her made up life in my head....her husband is just finishing up law school....a think it must have been a mid-career crisis....he decided he didn't like what was he was doing, so he went back to school....i give him credit, because i have decided he must be at least 55, which means that he decided at like 50 to change careers....a big decision when you are so close to retirment....so, in my head i give him alot of respect....
in class we got back our second quizes and homeworks....it was not as anxiety enducing as before...good thing. the guy next to me got a 100 on his quiz....i am a little jealous....fred flintstone announced during the break that he has never been in such a boring class before in his life....so, it's even bad for fred.
in org devo we talked about change....how to be a change agent, how to make change work, what needs to happen to be effective....the reading we had to do was very relavent to my everyday life...when i was reading, i kept thinking of my work life....what is happening in my department, on campus....things aren't great right now....mostly i think because the governor keeps bringing everyone down with budget crap....but i am not sure that's all it....but something feels off....maybe i will never figure it out....as for class, it was interesting to sit with the young ones and listen to them....again it goes back to me being the bitter old lady and them being the naive young ones....
as for life in the fast lane...this past weekend i was down in cold spring....that is where the in-laws are....we had a birthday party and a baby shower....not at the same time....this was the weekend some of the family decided it would be good to talk to me about dating again....i understand they are being supportive and helping me to know it's okay....it's not time....because i was away for the weekend, no work got done....i got home on sunday and i was exhausted....so i napped instead of doing my work....so the work i did get done was only this past week's, nothing ahead....the weekend with the family was nice, as always....and jack got to play with his cousin henry alot.
this week, i went to visit a friend in auburn....she is here from turkey....the country that is....yes, a good friend, she moved away....i miss her lots....i drove there with another friend....it was nice to just spend the time with them both....it made me realize how much i miss all my friends....and how much it really hurts....well, not hurt as much as i ache to be around them....i feel more whole when i am aroudn them....i dreamed last night that we all lived in the same place....again. i guess i am the only one who has really at one time lived in the same place as my friends....my friends haven't necessarily done that, but it would be nice....but as for my friend in turkey, i told someone today that i think of her being just in california....it makes it feel a little more close and easily accessible...the rest of the week is late meetings and then more time with friends....i hope to squeeze in laundry and homework....oh, and of course sleep.
i think the other thing that is hard for me is, that i miss my house and the cats and the dog when life is crazy....i work with moms and dads who talk about not having enough kid time or family time....and i guess when i think of it, while it's not the same, i don't have enough pet time....they are like my kids, my family.....and i miss them....and it's not fair to them that i am not here....but i just don't know how to do it all....i can't imagine if they were real children....so, i give you all credit- but i am still allergic ;)
okay, so this post is not so exciting....life in the fast lane for me this week has been a little depressing, i guess....but what's important is that i did see and will see lots of my special people...
so on monday, i went to class as usual....and sat through stats class....i think if any class could kill, this would be it....the material is not interesting, and i know the professor can't help that, but she could be more exciting....i sit in class and think up stories about her life....what her house must look like- based on what her office looks like....her office is outta control! it's crazy messy and i am not sure how she finds anything....i went in to see her and there was no where for me to sit....now, i am sure some of you are thinking of other people you know with offices like this....just giggle for a minute.
back to her made up life in my head....her husband is just finishing up law school....a think it must have been a mid-career crisis....he decided he didn't like what was he was doing, so he went back to school....i give him credit, because i have decided he must be at least 55, which means that he decided at like 50 to change careers....a big decision when you are so close to retirment....so, in my head i give him alot of respect....
in class we got back our second quizes and homeworks....it was not as anxiety enducing as before...good thing. the guy next to me got a 100 on his quiz....i am a little jealous....fred flintstone announced during the break that he has never been in such a boring class before in his life....so, it's even bad for fred.
in org devo we talked about change....how to be a change agent, how to make change work, what needs to happen to be effective....the reading we had to do was very relavent to my everyday life...when i was reading, i kept thinking of my work life....what is happening in my department, on campus....things aren't great right now....mostly i think because the governor keeps bringing everyone down with budget crap....but i am not sure that's all it....but something feels off....maybe i will never figure it out....as for class, it was interesting to sit with the young ones and listen to them....again it goes back to me being the bitter old lady and them being the naive young ones....
as for life in the fast lane...this past weekend i was down in cold spring....that is where the in-laws are....we had a birthday party and a baby shower....not at the same time....this was the weekend some of the family decided it would be good to talk to me about dating again....i understand they are being supportive and helping me to know it's okay....it's not time....because i was away for the weekend, no work got done....i got home on sunday and i was exhausted....so i napped instead of doing my work....so the work i did get done was only this past week's, nothing ahead....the weekend with the family was nice, as always....and jack got to play with his cousin henry alot.
this week, i went to visit a friend in auburn....she is here from turkey....the country that is....yes, a good friend, she moved away....i miss her lots....i drove there with another friend....it was nice to just spend the time with them both....it made me realize how much i miss all my friends....and how much it really hurts....well, not hurt as much as i ache to be around them....i feel more whole when i am aroudn them....i dreamed last night that we all lived in the same place....again. i guess i am the only one who has really at one time lived in the same place as my friends....my friends haven't necessarily done that, but it would be nice....but as for my friend in turkey, i told someone today that i think of her being just in california....it makes it feel a little more close and easily accessible...the rest of the week is late meetings and then more time with friends....i hope to squeeze in laundry and homework....oh, and of course sleep.
i think the other thing that is hard for me is, that i miss my house and the cats and the dog when life is crazy....i work with moms and dads who talk about not having enough kid time or family time....and i guess when i think of it, while it's not the same, i don't have enough pet time....they are like my kids, my family.....and i miss them....and it's not fair to them that i am not here....but i just don't know how to do it all....i can't imagine if they were real children....so, i give you all credit- but i am still allergic ;)
okay, so this post is not so exciting....life in the fast lane for me this week has been a little depressing, i guess....but what's important is that i did see and will see lots of my special people...
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